“It found me when I felt I had to walk miles and Climb
Mountains to get it. All this while it existed so close to me that I had no
clue about it. I was all busy chasing my perceived version of happiness and I
had lost myself entirely while doing that. Perhaps I enjoyed the pursuing and
the directionless search out of some insanity, but never realized when it had
crossed the limit of being my passion and was turning into an obsession, and
gradually a burden or may be a low level of depression.
And now I just find myself still, welcoming the natural and
unforced set up of my new original happiness. Happiness inside me.” She had a
wide grin on her face and a grateful sparkle in her eyes.
After the therapy session, Vipra opened her eyes and shared her
unique experience with her new best friend and her life coach Dr. Khan.
She looked into the mirror and could feel her own dazzling
energy around herself. For few minutes everything remained silent, and it felt
better that way to everyone present in the room.
“ I owe many thanks to you, and have no words to express
them. It was like finding a giant tree to hug, lean on and rest under its
shadow after being tired running for years,” her satisfaction was evident in
her words.
Vipra had been into an unusual kind of depression and
emotional traumas which she herself hadn’t recognized from past 10 years. The
multiple unsuccessful love relationship had taken a toll on her sentiments. Being
a positive thinker and a fighter she always believed in moving on and never giving
up on love. This enormous optimism had practically helped her to get accustomed
to the post heart breaks and the healing process. Forgiving, forgetting and
reconciling seemed right tools for her when each time she gambled with her
feelings. It hurt a great deal but she kind of enjoyed the pain too. It was a melancholic
state which she found comfortable to deal with.
For years, her professional success and family support kept
her strong. These sides of life were sailing so stably that taking care of any
other didn’t seem necessary at all. In fact none of the other sides seemed
damaged, they just appeared difficult on the surface for a while and then she
would naturally take care of it in her own way.
However all of that which was growing in the unknown
abundant corner was ignored by her.
Vipra had no clue that her ‘never say die attitude’ had let
her not realize her own wounds. She needed to see them, accept them and stop
repeating her actions which caused them. Her attempt of self-healing or
positive thinking wasn’t proving wrong, but ignoring so much of her own
sentiments in the entire process was slowly damaging her strongest walls
inside.
Vipra’s confusion between how much to give unconditionally,
how much to love without expectations based on her spiritual beliefs; would
often clash with the rationality of real life. She was fearless, open and lively
in most of her romantic encounters. They started off well, brought a lot of
joyous time to both the partners, learnt
and explored. While living that way she had said a lot of ‘No’s to her self-love.
Her inner self kept dying with every step she took towards pleasing someone
else. She didn’t even realize where empathizing had ended and ‘take me for a
granted’ phase had started.
After being highly disturbed for a while and experiencing
the impact of her brokenness on her self-confidence, she slowly sensed that
there was something wrong in her life. Her unconscious always kept telling her
something, which she couldn’t hear. The effect was slowly seen on her high
energy in her work and personal life. There always seemed to be something
unsettling which she could never point out.
She survived in that state for several years until she met
her new life coach by Coincidence. Dr. Khan happened to be a life coach at her new
organization. She met him during one of his one to one coaching sessions with
another client. She happened to overhear the therapeutic discussion while using
the cooler at the corner of a foyer of her department.
After a few unplanned conversations with Dr. Khan, made
Vipra felt a bit secured in life. Suddenly the anxiety was diminishing and she
just became a bit relaxed. This motivated her to move forward and formally ask
for his help.
Dr. Khan being a genius in psychiatry, motivation,
numerology, mythology and other expert areas naturally helped identifying her
inner fears, she was astonished to find the accuracy in his analysis of her
life without sharing a single detail on her own.
His unconventional psychiatric sessions were beautiful and
insightful. He helped her find her own talents and gifts with the help of numerology,
mythological analogies, life stories, and his liberal approach of consulting. Gradually
she was healing.
The formal sessions began on daily basis, and today here she
was in her second last session, feeling more poised, calm and sorted. It was as
if nothing was going to take away her inner strength and newly found self-worth
ever from her.
Dr. Khan replied to her appreciation, “ I am glad I could
help, but you don’t have to thank me. This has become the purpose of my life.
And it surely seems like a professional duty but deep inside it’s my real goal
of being alive. So I would in fact thank you for helping me getting closer to
that goal. This brings happiness to me.”
Vipra was overwhelmed and had no words to thank him enough, she
just remembered his memorable first words of their first session “So Vipra, are
you ready to find the real happiness this year?”
She was glad that she had got up from her desk, went near
the cooler and overheard this master speaking of all the wisdom that day. She
knew she had found her way at that moment and this time she didn’t ignore her intuition!
